I thought it would be fun to share what has been filling my creative jar and inspiring me lately. Recently it has been the author Elizabeth Gilbert as I went through her past TED talks. Her more recent talk was Success, failure and the drive to keep creating. Some of her questions left me stumped. “What feels like home? What do you love more than yourself?” Of course the answers I blurted out were my children and my husband. They are home to me. So does my inability to answer with a creative passion mean I don’t have a creative home? So I wrote down some notes and stewed on it for a bit and I think I’ve got it.
My “home” is surprisingly not photography. I love it, but photography alone does not fill my creative spirit. She talks about success and failure as the “distance you have been flung from yourself.” I see this in my life not as success and failure, but as adapting to change. The distance I have been flung from myself is the drastic lifestyle change of being tied down to an area and a house, tied down by money and a business, by expectations, must do’s and should do’s and flung to a life free of constraints. Where if we put the effort in, we are free to move about and explore. With so much freedom in a great big world, it is easy to get lost in the space outside what she calls your “home”. I feel like I’m grasping again. Trying to fill a void but not quite understanding what that void is and what I should fill it with. Photography felt like home to me when I did this shoot on Brothers and Adventure or this concept shoot called Jump. So I realized home to me is being a creative. It’s dedicating a piece of (very) introverted me, to something tangible and putting into creative form something I’m not comfortable speaking.
“Your home is that thing to which you can dedicate your energies with such singular devotion that the ultimate results become inconsequential.” It’s the process of creativity that fills the void, not approval of whether something you have created is judged creative, beautiful or successful.
In one of her other TED talks she says “Don’t be daunted. Just do your job. Continue to show up for your piece of it.” So that’s my takeaway and my inspiration I’ve been working with this week. Reminding myself to stop researching and thinking of what I could be doing. Put your head down and do the job.